i felt so sad in school today. Not only because it was the last day of school, also because I am officially in grade 12 now. Grade 12.. me.. I never thought of it before. I am terrified as to wht the future will bring to me.
I'm not prepared, I still feel like a kid. I AM a kid. I want my mummy ):
I think my shortness has something to do with it....
Gah, this is so emotional for me! I actually don't mind high school all that much.. Sure, i HATE school and the work that comes with it, but I've been in JH for the past 5 years, and I'm truly comfortable there. I know the teachers, they know me, I know my way around, the insides and outs. I'm attached. However much I may hate JH, JH is my school <3. All this gradding and commencement stuff that has been going on for the grade 12's really got to me. Grad, commencement, grad transitions. GAH. Getting to know everyone over the years has truly been a wonderful experience for me. Of course there's been the ups and downs, goods and bads, but overall, i REALLY loved this year. From making new friends, to getting to know the old ones better, it has been making memories in my mind which I will cherish forever.
I'm most definitely going to miss everyone, that's for sure. I just hope everyone keeps in contact with each other, but hey, that's why facebook exists today! ;) Many of us will separate and go our own ways, many of us might end up in the same universities, either way, I don't want to lose the friendship I have gained through my life experience in highschool.
I feel so little most of the time, but it's scary to know that we're all in the same position. Comforting most of the time, i'm glad there we're all in this together. Just the bare idea of never stepping foot into high school anymore as a 'citizen of JH' will be hard to adjust to.. Theatre Company, Leadership, after school hang-outs, McDonald's, I'm going to miss this all! I will miss my classes, which only remains with me in memory.
My few tight friends, who have been by my side through thick and through thin, since grade 7, till grade 12, shaped me to be the person which I am today. Good times, bad times, I'm glad we were and ARE there for each other. Tahiyat & Stephanie, I don't know if you guys know this, but seriously, I LOVE you two. Without y'all, I honestly don't know where I'd be. It's natural instinct to tell you everything, feeling comfortable about it, and doing things together. I really hope we get into the same uni, or at the very least meet up often. I'm going to miss this SO MUCH.
Sharing a locker this year has been the best thing ever for me. From not having enough space in it, to decorating it, to having people marvel at our posters, and being the sole meeting-up place for everyone, it has just been truly lovely.
Ania, Elena, Rhianna, Natasha, Arthur, Eric, Micah, Nisha, you guys just make my day's so much more brighter either seeing you in the hallway, or in class, or by our lockers. I'm glad to you have people as my friends, it makes me happy inside. It really does.
I cherish all the memories we have together, and I hope we make more. It's been great getting to know everyone better this year, thats for sure, but it's also been awesome knowing that you'd be there when you need help.
It hasn't even been a day.. or at least 12 hours since school has ended, and technically we're 12th graders when we receive our report cards next week, but I don't know. It just hit me really hard. We're graduating.
I don't know. I'm going to miss ALL of this.
lots of love,
Belinda.
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